I Guess I'm Experiencing Problems

I guess I'm experiencing problems...
It's not so cool to have so many problems.
The Talking Heads

Help From Johnny Walker Red

Maybe a stiff drink would do the trick right now, though i doubt it. Maybe doubling or tripling my regular dosage of psycho pharmacological drugs would turn things around, probably not.

This post is probably going to ramble around and be incoherent to everyone except me. Just so you know what's coming...

So basically I have this powerful feeling that life is absolutely absurd. There is no meaning, there is no reason, there is no understanding. There is no real 'knowing'. According to Albert Camus there are only two responses to this conclusion; live on with hope, seeking some meaning, or ending your life.

I feel there are things left for me to do, contributions to make, art to create, stories to write, people to avoid, etc. Manic depression is a bitch, and it sort of derails most of these lovely dreams and plans.

Ah. dang. I can't make myself write anymore now...